I am very overweight, and I have let that get me down for a lot of my life.
Obviously a lot of the world shares the same problem, but that does not make it any easier to deal with. Over the years I have had a hard time trying to keep my head held high. Most people who know me said they didn't understand this self-esteem issue because I am beautiful with a great personality and a lot of intelligence.
Early on I learned that regardless of how many times people you know say positive things, you may always feel like they are saying things to be nice. I never got compliments from people outside my circle, so my esteem stayed low for a long time. A couple of years ago I met a guy and he changed everything.
I met him on a chat line, and we arranged to meet in person the following weekend. I was afraid of what he would think of me, even though I had already sent him a picture message and he said he approved. The day we met he stepped off the bus and altered my entire way of thinking. He gave me compliments so often that you would swear I was reading a book of motivational quotes.
At first I wasn't sure that he was being sincere, but after a while I started to feel like it. Every time he said positive things to me, I started to feel a tad bit better about myself. One day I sat down and wrote a few motivational quotes down on Post-Its and stuck them all over the house. I told myself that I could read these and I would feel just fine, even on a bad day.
My style of dress and my attitude changed tremendously, because I no longer felt that I had anything to be ashamed of. I looked at all of the positive things about me and used them to overshadow all of my negatives. I am not going to say that it was easy making this transition, and I am still a work in progress.
A year or so ago, my relationship with my Prince Charming ended. At first I started to doubt myself and think there must have been something wrong with me, but in actuality there was something very wrong with him. I looked at all of the motivational quotes that remained stuck to the mirrors and doors of my home and I told myself that I am great and it is time to move on.
I still struggle a little with myself esteem. I cannot say that there are not days where I look in the mirror and I do not like what I see, but I think most people have days like that every once in a while. Whenever I get down I remind myself that I am large in size, but I am also large in intelligence and personality. That helps me continue my day with a smile on my face.